Back and Forth
This is simply a sad love song. It's about running back and forth through emotions and feelings
for a person that you care deeply about. It's been said that loneliness can kill you. I have to
agree and add that so can love. It doesn't have to, but the risk is always there. That's what
makes it what it is. In 2002 I was emotionally tangled up with a woman that I felt greatly connected
with. We both had issues and things didn't work out. It left me a little introspective and
empty. I wrote it down.
Lucky 7
Lucky 7 was written in anger and indignation (some righteous, some not). I don't regret writing
the song as it stands as a statement to watch for wolves in sheep's clothing. I had an
acquaintance who made a living off of other people. There is a laundry list of people who have been violated
(ethically, economically, spiritually, etc) by this individual. Have you ever had a friend who
goes to a restaurant and puts hair in his soup to get a free meal? This person was that sort. The
list of 'victims' who are owed money is astounding. It is, sadly, easier for me to think of
people I know whom this person has not violated! The part that is hard to swallow is that the person
continues to recruit more innocents... All under the name of God! Having tasted of this persons
treatment, I let myself become bitter and angry. But thanks to the love and mercy of Jesus Christ
and the counsel of one Pastor Don Sharp (Church of God at Baden - www.cogab.org) I am well on my
way to letting it go! This song was written during the Autumn of 2002, about eight months removed
from my angst!
Wasting Away
This is a song that I wrote while dealing with the pain of losing my Grandmother. When I was a
child I made her promise me that she would never die. Ah... the innocence of a child! Well, she
was the first significant family member to die. I had a hard time with it and obviously battled
many different emotions. This song expresses the sorrow and wonderment of her current state. Does
she see me? Is she disappointed in me? Does she still love me? Crazy thoughts and yet I think
we can all relate. I love you Grandma!
Mercy River
I am often really amazed by God's ability to give you a 'revelation'. It's almost always
something simplifying. I often think afterwards... "Man, why didn't I get that before??" This song was
borne out of a revelation of who God thinks I am. The older I get, the less I know myself. I
think idleness and the general malaise of being 'set in one's ways' is to blame. James 1:23,24 says:
"For if any be a hearer of the word, and not a doer, he is like unto a man beholding his natural
face in a glass: For he beholdeth himself, and goeth his way, and straightway forgetteth what
manner of man he was." And even before I left that glass, I wasn't sure who I was. It was
revelational to actually grip the fact that He knows me better than I know myself. What's more is that He
loves me. So when I'm facing situations that confuse or scare me, I can remember that I may not
know what sort of man I am... But He does. And He's with me. His GRACE and MERCY are sufficient
for me! I have really made it a point to get involved in ministry since around December of 2002. I
want the Lord inside me to form the man I am to be outwardly. It's easier said than done, but I'm
working on it! Most importantly, His Mercy River is NEW every morning!
Peace, Rick Mester
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